Something about home

Ah! My peaceful break is almost over :( :( :(

For the 7 week break from school I got to come home- take care of the mother post op- and take the time for ONCE to just relax, Deal with life, live, have fun, be with friends and enjoy life. Lets just say it was very much needed. Some experiences of note:

Finding some great new friends and spending time with old ones


Skillet & Theft concert with family


Running a race for a good cause


Spending time with people I love

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It was an experience. You always learn something about yourself when you go back home. There is something peaceful and still there that you are unable to acquire anywhere else. You gain a piece of yourself back.

I really dont know what will happen tomorrow or in the future. I just hope that wherever I am, I am happy and happy with the ones I love

As of Lately

Me and Tanner :)


Me Spence and Tan!

Me and Mom on our Bday

Even So...

This is What I NeEded

Tonight.... Oh the adventures of tonight. Finally just went out with the girls and I must say I had a blast! It is definitely what I needed. Yes I love you boys that I get to hang out with but Ladies its always fun just to be with you. :) I can completely be myself. And its nice every once in a while to appropriately step out of routine.

Today I Love:
Relaxing
Sleeping in
Family
Long long showers
alone time
Laughing
Good talks
Smiling

Birthday and Life

So I must say... This Birthday was a SUCCESS!

Mom and I on our Bdays!

Finally a good one for the first time since I was 16! And Yes my Mom and I do share the same Birthday!
Spent the day doing NO work, Laying out, Dinner with family and friends, and then out with Friends :)

I have finally been able to relax, go out and live my life and I must say it has been very refreshing! From here on out, I will do what I want to do because I want to and because I can. If you dont like it... TOUGH. Get over its not my problem. Feels Kind of nice to put your foot down.
So this week just hung out with people I enjoy being with and with my family. Life's pretty Okay.

Kevin and I at the Gwinnett Braves Game

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HOME!

Is the best place in the world to be. Yes it is fun to go off and have your adventures but a big piece of you will always belong here. I feel at peace, still, and me again.

I love the people here, I love my family, and I love the small moments

Rush of Emotions

Today has just been a rush of emotions. I Don't even know where to start

The Quiet escape of Idaho, the sun, a good book, and music have all been my escape. And maybe a couple of other things.

Today memories have been flooding back. Today I have been remembering all of the incredible and all of the hard. How much I have grown, learned, how much left I still have to live. I am happy but at times incomplete. I am so grateful today for the people I have met who have changed my life. Who have shown me what true happiness is. Who are incredible because it's who they are and not just what they do. I am so so grateful and changed because of these few. Some I have known forever and some just a short time but regardless of the time I have been changed and blessed by them. So thank you

Today I have been wondering... Do we ever really fully know who we are? Or are we always changing. How do you keep up? Is the good in us permanent or does is sometimes fade and what happens when the bad or the hard comes out? I have been thinking today that I want to be that great girl because its who I am and not just how I act. I hope I am this person. If I ever falter it will only be for a moment.
There are SO many things I want out of life that its almost overwhelming. And they're not physical things but more emotional, not always tangible, security oriented. I want to know that I am always going to know who I am. So thank you for those who help me remember it.

I love the person that I am today. No regrets. Forever learning. Always growing

Trying to Breathe

My pursuit

Many people pursue their lives in search of happiness. The ones who truly have it are the ones who make their own happiness.

So i had to take at least 5 minutes out of my day to just write... I'm going crazy and this seems to always calm me down.

Last week... Well it just sucked lets say that. I'm trying to be in better spirits this week, stay busy, focus on school, be optimistic as to the turn out of things, and go with the flow. I don't know whats going to happen with things.

Nothing is Definite. Nothing is Certain. That's at least one thing I have learned. I just want to be happy and for those I love to be happy. I genuinely do. And in the end I hope that I have a big part in making them happy and visa versa. There is so much to live for and so many GOOD things in life! Second and Third chances can work out. I have found that one of two things can happen, either nothing will change and things will go back, or a Huge change can take place offering whole, new incredible experiences made up of just being better and an overall better life.
I hope for the latter. Won't settle for the first.

So no plans are ever definite. I love family, I love friends, I love Love. I have come to accept that there will ALWAYS be something that's wrong in life and that it's hard whether its money (lack there of), family, work, or just life! But in that always be your best self and be happy. Live your day, love always, and just work at being happy.

Many people pursue their lives in search of happiness. The ones who truly have it are the ones who make their own happiness.

Lately

So LATELY....

Its been crazy this week! So much to do so busy with school and so many other things! Ah! I cant wait to be home out of Rexburg and with FAMILY!! I love my friends but other than that.. Other people here drive me CrAzY!! Who the heck goes to IDAHO for school? I do. loved it, learned from it, now ready to get the Hell out. :) I'm excited to get back to normal life with normal friends. But today I am grateful for so many things -Life can be really great if you just let it.

Lately i have been worrying about so many things that are just out of my control. I have let it almost ruin my life these past months. Im ready to be me again. Fun, happy, outgoing me. I am confident in who I am and what I want out of life. So no more worrying. Just let it all go. People will ALWAYS let you down, hurt you, lie to you, and mistreat you. I have just learned to be patient, be better than that, and be happy. Everyone deserves more than they think. So i try to keep surrounding myself with people who will want to make me happy and who I love. and hopefully I can make the ones I love and have let down happy as well. :) we are not as perfect as we may think.

But those are just a few thoughts as of lately!

Last Weekend

So this past weekend was Kevin's last weekend in Rexburg :( Sad I know.. Pretty depressing.

But we tried to make the best of it! So just a little update on the last happenings.. A small group of close friends threw Kev a surprise "We'll miss you/ Happy Birthday" Party. Best thing was.. He really had no idea this time- which they usually do. And it was so hard to keep it from him because the kid is a freakin genius! But it was great fun with all of our close friends. His bosses even came :)

Also it was the 4th of July weekend! We ended up going to Idaho Falls to watch the big firework show. Apparently its the biggest one West of the Mississippi. (ps every time I spell Mississippi I have to sing that song we all learned in grade school).
But it was a great show! it lasted forever! I know this might sound way corny but it has always been a wish of mine to watch a pretty fireworks show on the 4th with someone I love and care about. This year it finally came true and it was just nice.


Monday morning was the morning of doom.. The day Kevin had to leave. Needless to say I was not in the best spirits. Too many times I have had to say goodbye. Granted its really not going to be for that long but it's still hard. When you spend every moment of your spare time with someone you love, you kind of feel completely empty once they're not there anymore. That's how I felt today. Empty. I got along fine by keeping busy but the situation just sucks. But home is where he needs to be right now. It is where he is needed most. So time for me to stop being selfish and let things happen the way they need to. :)

Cops and Robbers

Yesterday Kevin and I got to play cops and robbers and help the local Rexburg Police in a little sting operation. Yeah We're pretty Bad A**

A couple weeks ago Kev had a sketch roommate move in. First red flag...Two days ago we noticed that his i-pod was missing. We looked everywhere turned the whole house apart. Nothing. Then Kevin with his crazy 6th sense just knew that his roommate had stolen it. So he decides to look on Craig's list and sees there is conveniently a new i pod for sale... the same exact as his. Then came the "Lindsay... you have to call this guy and get information on him and act like you want to buy it!" So yes I did some investigative work under the name of Nikki. Got his name and last, number, address, and all sorts of other stuff. I asked if there were any movies on it and yeah.. there were... the same ones that Kev had. We were just planning on doing a meet and then takin it if it was in fact Kevin's but decided to go to the safe route...
We then met with a super cute officer at the police station, (who said I did great undercover work) explained the situation.... turns out he KNEW the guy who was selling the i pod (who was NOT Kevin's roommate), and WHERE he lived. Then turns out that the kid is like best friends with Kev's roommate. They definitely had a record... Coincidence... I think not. We spoke to another officer who then told us..."IF you can get these guys on ANY charges.... DO IT" so yes... We pulled a little sting operation. Me... by the name of NIKKI and Kevin.
We get to the meet spot where the cops can see us, after we look at the i pod.. It's definitely Kevin's... With a playlist entitled "Linz". Kevin gives the signal and the COPS COME SWARMING IN question the kids and then handcuff them and throw them in the back of the cop car!!!
We went back to the station and gave our statements. At first we just wanted the property back no big deal we just didnt want to wait until we never saw it again and then have to drop another $300. But at the urge of the police we did what we could for our community :)

No we won't be accepting any rewards it was all for the good of our local community!

And that was our weekly adventure

Father's Day

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!

To all of those amazing men who dedicate their lives to being a good father :)

I have the most amazing Father and Bonus dad in the world!!!

To:DAD

Thank you for always being there for me and being such an incredible example. Your strength, patience, hard work, and compassion have made such an impact on my life. I cherish our relationship as Father and Daughter. I am so grateful to have you to confide in and receive advice from. I am so grateful for how hard you work for our family. You are the most self-less person I know and yet I have never heard you complain. You are the one who raises the bar for all men to live up to. I love you dad :)

To: Brian

BRIAN!! My bonus dad. I am so grateful to have you in my life and in my mom's life. You have added so much happiness into my world. You are such a great example of a good husband and father. I love that you are in my life and love being able to talk your head off for as long as you let me. I am grateful for your silent example of being a good man. I love you Brian and am grateful to have you as a father in my life!

I am so lucky to have these two men in my life :)

Happy Father's Day!!!

Kites

Summer is finally here!!!!!!!! Yesterday was pretty much amazing with perfect weather. I hope it is just constant now. No More SNOW! And one fun fact about today??

Its Kevin and I's 8 MONTHS!!!! WOW. I'm pretty excited. So now just making the best of things before he has to move back home in July :(. How do you function properly when the person you love, who you have spent every day with moves to the other side of the country? And it makes me sick under the circumstances as to why he has to move home. From now until December is going to suck. yup. But... On a more upbeat note...

I was going through old pictures on my camera and found some of us at the Kite Festival earlier this summer in Idaho Falls.

Life is always better with you in it

New Blogger

Attention!

We have a new blogger on our hands. So due to request by family and few friends.. I have given in and created a blog.

Recap on whats going on in

my life... I am a senior this year at BYU-I about to graduate in December (YAY!!!) I am in love with this pretty cool guy named Kevin Graska and I am HAPPY!!!! Thats pretty much the short version! So I'm excited to share more of my life to who ever wants to know :)