Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Photo Dump Confessions

So I have noticed lately that I haven't really been sharing a lot about my life and have only been writing about certain topics. I am sorry for that. I really want to you to be able to get to know me and not just the side I choose to show.

So as of late:

-Work is really my life. It's pretty much all I do lately with some randomness thrown in between. I have been crazy stressed lately to the point of not sleeping, breaking out, and being a bipolar case but I am finally getting settled into this new position I have. I have been learning a ton and it has been a blessing to learn SO MUCH while still new to the corporate world. Expanding my experience and knowledge base will be a huge asset in the future.

-My Heart has issues. I don't know what I want right now and that scares me. I know that in the future I want to be married and have children, there's no compromising on that. But I am at a point in my life where I am finally TRULY doing the "me" thing, and I love it. I do too much for others and not enough for myself. I will never have this opportunity again for the rest of my life, so I am taking the opportunity now even though its frowned upon by certain people around me who wish I would just pop out babies already.

-I don't know if I can work in Corporate America for the rest of my career. I'm good at it, I enjoy it, but it is SO easy to lose sight of the important things in life while being here. I want to work to live, not live to work.

- I got a roommate! Timara is finally living with me and I absolutely love it. I love that I don't get annoyed with her, we can have a crazy night out or low key night in and its always the best. It's nice to be able to have an intelligent conversation with her and talk about gossip (we all do). She is my honorary, *non-romantic, significant other.

-Is it sad that down the road I want my husband to just take care of me without me having to worry about work? Outside of being a stay at home mom, I do want hobbies and side projects that bring in income, but I don't want a 9-5 when I'm married after the first few years. But I am willing to do my part.

- My whole life I have felt a burden that my future family will depend on me financially and it stresses me out to the point of daily anxiety.

-I find myself wanting the past back even though I know it's not right, at least now, and know that its not healthy for me.

-I hate living with Meniere's Disease. I have had to completely change my lifestyle. I never know when an attack will come and that just adds on more stress. Sometimes I am SO mad about it, but I have to remember that if this is the only thing I have to go through right now, I have it SO easy and am so lucky and blessed.

-I always feel under-appreciated.

-I'm completely happy and complacent in life right now. Life is good and wonderful in the most imperfect way.

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1. Spencer's Scout Pinewood Derby race 2. My best guy friends in a nutshell 3. My beautiful goddaughter Kaiya
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1. Sick day 2. 200 followers! wow! 3. Sick day 4. Compliments of my 8 year old brother

Happy Tuesday! Hope you enjoyed this session of Photo Dump Confessions.

6 comments:

Shannon @ Bungalow960 said...

Oh lady, I'm so sorry you're struggling. But, I love to see that you are looking on the bright side of things. Work is totally stressing me lately too, and I would love nothing more to be able to be a stay at home mom someday. I grew up that way and the fact that I probably will never be able to do that kills me as well.

Melissa said...

I understand how you feel. I want nothing more than to be a stay at home Mom. I want more babies, too. Unfortunately, that's that the path I'm supposed to take evidently. Some days it's a hard pill to swallow. I try to look at the bright side, though. I'm still very much blessed with a beautiful 8 year old son and a loving and supportive husband. I shouldn't complain, I guess. Keep your head up! <3

CottonCandyINK said...

i love photos like these, you look lovely

Susan said...

Something must be in the air because this week I have been thinking THE SAME EXACT THINGS AS YOU. I am a bit of a planner and that tends to make me a worrier... my mom keeps reminding me that a year from now I will not be able to remember what I was stressing about now. Here's hoping she's right! We just have to keep a positive outlook on everything. And don't let corporate america change you... stay true to yourself. Work to live, don't live to work! xoxo

July said...

Gosh we really are going through the same thing! I am trying to tell myself that every day will get better - but adjusting to a new job SUCKS. we WILL get there though!!!

We also need to set up our blog date :)

veggiemama said...

I stumbled upon your blog from another blog (blog hopping!) and I was reading your posts on Meniere's disease.

I just had some suggestions for you. You can take them or leave them :)

I don't have Meniere's disease, but I am in the natural health field. Sometimes it's hard for me not to comment and let people know there are other ways to treat diseases. I hate to see people suffer!

You can add coconut water to your diet, on a daily basis. This will help replenish your Potassium levels.

Eat fresh vegetables and fruits such as peas, celery, grapefruits and pineapples. These fruits and vegetables contain vitamins and minerals that will help combat the disease.

Acupressure and acupuncture have also been found to be very helpful to manage the symptoms of Meniere's disease. Acupressure can even be used during an attack, to help reduce the symptoms. If you are interested in that, I would recommend finding a local acupuncturist.

Be well!

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