Best Weekend Ever!

So I have this thing with my best friend Melissa.... That whenever we hang out its "THE BEST DAY EVERY!!!!" or in this case BEST WEEKEND EVER!!
So definitely had the chance to go down to Utah this weekend which was SO needed. I really just had to get out of the Rexburg bubble. I got to see my good friend Logan this weekend! and then just hang out with Melissa all weekend. YES! We got to hang out... go to FORK FEST MUSIC FESTIVAL in American Fork where they had 3 stages with live music and awesomeness.
These are the friends that I always want to have in my life. These are the people that I will never forget about and who have changed my life for the better.
So thats my updated weekend. Definitely dreaded coming back but this week has actually gone by so fast its crazy.

This is what We NeEd

Ah what a crazy week. I must say it has been quite adventurous. I got to meet our new client this week! I will be a consultant for his new start up business helping with market analysis and due diligence. Might sound boring but I love it!

Let me just say I have been doing so much thinking about what I want out of life, the type of person I want to be, and the type of people I want in life. There are so many little quotes and saying about life and love but do we truly listen to them or follow them? I dont really know.I was listening to this song today and really liked the chorus lyrics.I know this might sound ridiculous but this is the person that I want, these are the types of friends I want. Yes this is talking about a relationship but I want to apply it to everyone. I have seen so much lately that people today are landsliding towards selfishness. I have even seen it in myself at times. When was the last time we went out of our way for somebody just because? When was the last time someone showed you that they cared by a simple act of kindness? I really wonder if we surround ourselves with the right people.
I know the type of person that I want to become, and I know the type of people I want in my life.

People who rejoice with you when youre happy,
who are proud of you when you succeed and let you know it,
who cry with you when your heart hurts,
who accept you for who you are and never try to change that,
who inadvertently make you want to be a better person
People who call you just because they care and want to hear about your day
People who respect you in every manner- emotionally and verbally and physically
who are understanding and patient with you
who only want to make you happy with no anterior motives.
who dont start drama and fights
who trust you and forgive you of your past faults
People who still love you for your weaknesses
People who show you they care by word and deed
people who adore you, love you and are just good to you... and for you

This is what I want. I know its rare to find these people but they are out there and I have been so blessed to have just a few of them in my life.
No matter how hard it is, be a better person, treat people with respect deserving or not. Be more selfless, and be kinder

AH!

So this week has been interesting to say the least.... It kind of hit me that Im really GRADUATING this semester. That's it. School will be over. Good bye comfort zone hello real world. Can I really do this!? Im kind of freakin out here!

This weekend was much needed though. Finally got to take a trip down to Utah for General Conference and it was just incredible. So spiritually uplifting and just what I needed. The one thing I love about Conference is that it keeps me in check with the person that I am. How much I want to be better. I have come to realize that I can be pretty selfish in my life. I dont want to be. I just want to be happy, yes... look out for myself... but be there for others too. But I had SO much fun with my roommates this weekend :)

too High expectations

Just excited for what and who is waiting for me at home and ready to leave

I know these postings are usually supposed to be all about whats great and happy in life but sometimes you just need to vent.
Sometimes I really do feel that I have too high expectations for people. Why put so much trust and effort into someone if they are just going to screw you over? I thought people here were supposed to be different. I hate when people start taking themselves too seriously and become nothing more than self centered egotistical idiots who think everything is about them. News flash... Its not. Sometimes people just want to be nice doesnt mean they want to join your fan club or anything. I feel like so many people here are only concerned about where they are seen, who theyre seen with, and how their image is to others who really wont remember two weeks from now.
People are fake and have lost their identities.
They turn into someone you look up to and admire to who you cant even be around without frustration or hurt.
Find a way you want to treat someone and stick to it. Stop it with all of this hot and cold crap. Be a good person be a good friend. Be a good person. Its really sad how good of a person someone can be and how quickly they can change when their priorities are out of order
if you say something, mean it and dont just say it because its what people want to hear. Ugh people. Good thing I am leaving in a couple of months and wont have to deal with it much longer. Yeah I will miss you very few who are real, incredible, and just pure amazing. But I am excited for what and who is waiting for me at home.

Love to Laugh

I seriously have not laughed this hard in so long! Cannot remember the last time when. My roommates are the funniest people I know and make me laugh to the point of tears, ab shakes, and back tension. Ah i love it. So I am ending my last semester on a pretty good note. Some fun things to note thus far:

Some awesome Monday Mustaches at Sammys! where you can get Free grilled cheese sandwiches with proof of mustache! Kickin butt in my classes :) thank you very much and on my way to graduation :) music to my ears.I seriously love Rexburg so much. yes I gripe and complain about it often but it has been so good to me. I love its small town feel, how everywhere you go you see a friendly or familiar face, and just the fun little things to do around here. I am really going to miss you Rexburg. You have taught me SO much about myself, life, love, and happiness.

Oh hello

Finally getting back into the swing of things with school. What a crazy busy schedule. I still cant believe that this is my last semester here... then Full blown career reality will hit. Yikes. Being back in Idaho has been really hard. Just emotionally and mentally but I am so grateful for the people in my life that have made it a bit easier.
It has been so hard to put on a happy face and pretend like everything is alright. But we do what we have to do, make to best of where we are, stand strong, and enjoy what we can. I have been thinking a lot about how much I take for granted. I forget so easily all the wonderful things in my life. I have noticed so many times that I am always looking for the next best thing. Some material thing to make me happy momentarily that will have no lasting effect whatsoever.
So today I am so grateful for what I have. Both material and intangible

My family My apartment My car My friends My relationships with others

A place to sleep Fun roommates Clothes on my back An education Life Love

But here are some pics of my cute Apartment and room :)

Back in the Burg

So yes... I am back in the Burg for my LAST SEMESTER!!! Ah!! And what the crap... My last semester here my roommates are freakin awesome! I would be happy to maybe stay longer! maybe.... but not going to happen.

So i was definitely not ready emotionally and mentally for school this semester. But having these awesome people to hang out with after all that school work is pretty nice. This weekend was pretty awesome though. Took the roommates to Big Judds!- Huge BURGERS!! Then went to the grand opening of Sammys Pies and Shakes where they had live music- BENTON PAUL WAS THERE!!!!!- AND.... I got a pic with him :)- Went to the Cocoa Bean for some freakin amazing CUPCAKES :) Ah it was amazing! Here are some weekend new roomie pics :)

My Happy Dance!

Something about home

Ah! My peaceful break is almost over :( :( :(

For the 7 week break from school I got to come home- take care of the mother post op- and take the time for ONCE to just relax, Deal with life, live, have fun, be with friends and enjoy life. Lets just say it was very much needed. Some experiences of note:

Finding some great new friends and spending time with old ones


Skillet & Theft concert with family


Running a race for a good cause


Spending time with people I love

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It was an experience. You always learn something about yourself when you go back home. There is something peaceful and still there that you are unable to acquire anywhere else. You gain a piece of yourself back.

I really dont know what will happen tomorrow or in the future. I just hope that wherever I am, I am happy and happy with the ones I love

As of Lately

Me and Tanner :)


Me Spence and Tan!

Me and Mom on our Bday

Even So...

This is What I NeEded

Tonight.... Oh the adventures of tonight. Finally just went out with the girls and I must say I had a blast! It is definitely what I needed. Yes I love you boys that I get to hang out with but Ladies its always fun just to be with you. :) I can completely be myself. And its nice every once in a while to appropriately step out of routine.

Today I Love:
Relaxing
Sleeping in
Family
Long long showers
alone time
Laughing
Good talks
Smiling

Birthday and Life

So I must say... This Birthday was a SUCCESS!

Mom and I on our Bdays!

Finally a good one for the first time since I was 16! And Yes my Mom and I do share the same Birthday!
Spent the day doing NO work, Laying out, Dinner with family and friends, and then out with Friends :)

I have finally been able to relax, go out and live my life and I must say it has been very refreshing! From here on out, I will do what I want to do because I want to and because I can. If you dont like it... TOUGH. Get over its not my problem. Feels Kind of nice to put your foot down.
So this week just hung out with people I enjoy being with and with my family. Life's pretty Okay.

Kevin and I at the Gwinnett Braves Game

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HOME!

Is the best place in the world to be. Yes it is fun to go off and have your adventures but a big piece of you will always belong here. I feel at peace, still, and me again.

I love the people here, I love my family, and I love the small moments

Rush of Emotions

Today has just been a rush of emotions. I Don't even know where to start

The Quiet escape of Idaho, the sun, a good book, and music have all been my escape. And maybe a couple of other things.

Today memories have been flooding back. Today I have been remembering all of the incredible and all of the hard. How much I have grown, learned, how much left I still have to live. I am happy but at times incomplete. I am so grateful today for the people I have met who have changed my life. Who have shown me what true happiness is. Who are incredible because it's who they are and not just what they do. I am so so grateful and changed because of these few. Some I have known forever and some just a short time but regardless of the time I have been changed and blessed by them. So thank you

Today I have been wondering... Do we ever really fully know who we are? Or are we always changing. How do you keep up? Is the good in us permanent or does is sometimes fade and what happens when the bad or the hard comes out? I have been thinking today that I want to be that great girl because its who I am and not just how I act. I hope I am this person. If I ever falter it will only be for a moment.
There are SO many things I want out of life that its almost overwhelming. And they're not physical things but more emotional, not always tangible, security oriented. I want to know that I am always going to know who I am. So thank you for those who help me remember it.

I love the person that I am today. No regrets. Forever learning. Always growing

Trying to Breathe